Update On My List- Part 1
If you’ve been reading from the beginning, I started this blog to keep myself motivated while Andrew was deployed. I set goals to focus on me. Now that he’s home, it’s been more difficult to find time, but I’m still pushing through! So here’s and update on some of the things I’ve been working on or changes I’ve made.
Look better naked.
I’m changing this one to “Feel better about myself.” If you read my earlier post here, you can see I started with a lower self-esteem really wanting to lose weight to look good which isn’t the most mentally healthy way to do it. I started implementing more meditation, affirmations and kinder thoughts in hopes it would shift my mind into loving myself enough to take better care of it- in all aspects, not just physically. It has honestly become a life-changer. I absolutely still have insecurities but they matter less. I was listening to a blogger who received a question about how to feel confident in a swimsuit since she was going to Europe after graduation. In summary, the blogger said F it! You’re on a beach, with people who love you, in the middle of Europe to celebrate an accomplishment you made and you’re going to waste it hiding behind a towel?! You have one life to enjoy. I could write a whole post on this.
I also planned a private Couples Yoga night that I’m super excited about! This is definitely not like me. I’d typically shy away from big social events and not want to get in work out clothes with some gorgeous, fit, and funny people. (I need to find uglier friends.) But since I’ve been working on my mind shift, I don’t really care because I’m kind of those things too. I’m going to have fun, spend time with friends, hopefully gyrate on the husband and ultimately focus on my body’s strengths.
Then I saw of video Andrew took of me and I looked awful! Here I was feeling more confident and then I see that. I thought to myself, “Am I disillusion?” So I weighed myself and I had gained four pounds. There should be a balance between feeling good about yourself, but also being conscious and mindful of your body and what’s happening. As you can see, I’m still struggling to figure it all out but I’m doing better than I was. I’m headed in the right direction.
2. Learn “From Now On'“ on the piano.
I’m crossing this one off the list. I’m SO sick of The Greatest Showman and all of its songs! Grey asks to hear it every time we’re in the car. I always rocked my kids to bed and would sing lullabies. Now Grey requests “Showman songs” and the National Anthem. It’s really exhausting to belt out the Star Spangled Banner followed by Never Enough.
3. Get a new do.
Done! I cut it a few weeks ago. At first it was a bit of a shock, but I’m used to it now. I like it; I feel more free! I need to hire a photographer but this is the best I could do. The first two photos below are of my longer hair; the second shows more of the color. In the last photo, I’m on the Ferris wheel- terrified but with shorter hair.
I don’t know why, but the first question people always ask is if Andrew likes it. I find it odd because it’s my hair and I don’t know many men who have a strong preference on their wife’s hairstyle. Nonetheless, he likes it long or short.
4. See a movie alone.
I still have to do this one but it’s hard because all of the movies I want to see, Andrew wants to see too. Maybe the next time I travel for work, I should tackle this one.
5. Taste Indian food.
Did this and hated it. You can read the blog post here. I’d like to try a bunch of new restaurants though.
6. Rock a boudoir shoot.
This has been scheduled for the fall! AH! I need to find something to wear and I want it to be HOT! Some women do jerseys or their husband’s button-up shirts but I’m not sure I’m the sporty type. I’m not really the sexy type either… I sometimes wear Andrew’s underwear. That’s my level of sexy.
Until next time…