The Boys' List
It’s difficult for me when people tell me how strong I am. I know their intent and although it’s very much appreciated, strength isn’t what I feel. I’m not doing anything that anyone else wouldn’t or couldn’t do.
When I first heard the news that Andrew would be deployed to the Middle East, I thought, “There’s no way I can do this.” They gave us 30 days. The days came and went quickly and before I knew it, he was gone.
Some mornings I don’t want to, but I wake up. It’s no choice of my own but I get dressed, put on some makeup, slap on a smile, go to work and care for the boys because it’s what needs to be done and it’s what’s normal. I know that Andrew and the boys need me to do it. You don’t stop your responsibilities as a parent because you’re sad.
It’s a big change for all of us to move in with family, worry about Andrew and not get to hug or talk to him often but I refuse to let this negatively affect our children.
Before Andrew left he told me, “The boys shouldn’t miss out just because I’m gone. Life still has to go on.” So that is exactly what we will do. We will continue doing what we normally do and have fun as a family because life will go on whether we want to wake up some mornings or not. The days will pass regardless of what we do so we will fill it with memories.
So I’m not sure I would call it strength. I think I’d just call it being a mom.
Every season, we’ll come up with a new list of fun things to do with the boys- just to make sure we’re still living our lives and creating memories.